i will be gentle..

sometimes i wonder..
how can a girl be that gentle?
how can a girl be that cute?
how can a girl be that sweet?
how can a girl be that obedient?

i wonder..
because..
i am not..
hahaha..

tell mi..
and i will try..
tell mi..
and i will learn..

because i m not..

in school..

its another sat..
in school again....
still rushing project..
basic draping...
haf to hand in on Mon...
hai...
lata going to spend money again..
to buy materials..
mus go Spotlight.. tt's our like 4th home?
hahah.. so many of us have their VIP member card..

so pathetic..
hai..
they must haf earned alot of our money..
well..
yah.

stupid..
spoil my mood again..
somebody put mi pigeons..
n another person orginally say wan to accompany mi..
then now.. break promise..
my fren last minute say not coming..
wat's last minute..
means..
not pre-planned..
well.. then its fated.. i haf to go alone..
i dun need YOU to pei mi.. i can go alone..
wun lost a piece of my flesh..

since..somebody is so (dun haf heart)
well should i bother..
go alone lor.
i m sure i m independent enuff.
and i dun care whether u believe anot..
i went shopping and buying stuff alone before..
so if there's no one and unwillingly to pei mi..
i can just go alone..
instead of dragging someone along..
n whom's heart is not here at all..
and maybe will keep watching the watch..
checking the time..
and keep thinking abt another place, another event..
then i rather i go alone..

alone..
alone..
loney.....

how do i feel?

its another boring evening..
not exactly another actually..
its just that it had been long since i spent a quiet eveing at home..
usually.. at this time..
we will be watching tv..
or i will be out there dun know where..

now..
sis n mum is sleeping..
papa not at home..
so..
i am alone in the study room..

wat am i doing?
nothing..
actually quite alot things to do..
got 20 drawings to be done..
i oreadi had.. 13 done..
which i had spent 2 days drawing..
it loks simple to draw..
and sometimes i realli wonder..
y do i spent so much time just to draw these?
how can i spent so a long time to just draw a few sketches??

(ding dong)..
my neighbour gave us a fish again..
she woked my mother up..
and i got nagged by my mother again..
well..
hai.. normal nagging..
heard many times liao..
but actually quite sad lah..
cos we realli nv did our part as the children..
nv care enuff..
hai..
mus keep reminding myself..

where was i just now???
oh...
yah..school started..
at celebrations oso started..
our holidays always clashes with the sec.pri.school's exams..
and when they are done and holiday started for them..
its our turn to go back to school..
so when we are having celebrations and watever..
its will be very busy for us..
especially its end of the year..
our important Christmas is coming...
whoo-hooo..
but it will be fun n tiring for us lah..
somemore chalet is reaching in two days..
so i have to rush my projects 1st..
if not i will not be able to hand in my stuffs on the following day..

well.. jia you lor..
seems like i type very long liao..
bera with mi..
i m becoming a grumble granny..
just for tonite i hope....
...

this is how i m feeling now..abit siansian... haha
with joy..

my love for you..

may you forgive mi..
for the things that i had done..
for the things that i had done and break your heart..
for the thingst that i had done and hurt u..
for the things that i had done that will affect our relationship..

i know u will understand..
and forgive mi..
as long as i admit my mistake..

pls forgive mi..
pls..
i will once again repent..
and start afresh with you..

no matter how many times i make you angry..
i know you will forgive and forget..
i know you will give mi time..
and i know you will help mi stand again..
infront of everyone..

i know..
that i am weak..
but with you..
i m strong..
and i know...
that no matter how difficult..
no matter how busy i am..
no matter how tired i am..
i will wan to spend time with you..
becos you are precious to mi..
and i know..
that you love mi as well..
and i love you too..

my love may not be as much as yours..
but i still wan to say..
i love you...

and i wan to make u happy all the time..
i wan to be close to you all the time..
i like to hear ur voice all the time..
and i know..
i will see your face..
in glory..

Praise God..
Thank you..
for giving us your son.. Jesus Lord..

xuanxin is beside mi..

3rd day of school..
so sian..
now doing nothing..
in computer lab..
waiting for a 6pm lecture..
ahaha..
so i can update my blog lor..
hahaha..
hmm..
wat are you doing now?
studying?
working?
slacking?

well..then can pray for our christmas celebration..
so many bro n sis are serving for tt day..
so many bro n sis are involved in the special programmes..
so many hearts are tied together to put in the best for our service..

mus come wo if you are reading this now...
so..
XUANXIN! mus come..
haha..
hahahahahaha.....
shock rite?
ahhaa.
XUANXIN!!!!
haha..

you better come..
actually..
you are sitting beside mi now..
heeee..

school reopening..

school had re-opened yesterday..
today is the second day..
how do i feel?
excited actually..
nervous of cos..
excited becos i like to stay in school wif my frens..
everyone together rushing project together..
nervous becos i dun like the way the projects are cramp together..
so many projects to rush at the same time..
the datelines are all next to one another..
today this project..
tml another project..
the next day that project..
the following project 2 projects to be handed in..
its terrible..

but i guess..
tis time i will handle well..
with the grace of God..
n i wan to be a happy ger..
while striving hard for my studies..
i do not wan to be like last semester again..
if not..
will be quite tied down..
becos of the nearly break down situation of last semester..
i know people are much more concern of my emotions n health
so..
i will be tied down as in.
i will have to do my projects..
n not going out..
becos i wun be able to finish the things..
(tt's wat they think)
so..
yah..
pray for mi..
haha..

i will be better than last semester..
i will..
i'm sure!!

while toking on the phone with a customer.. i took a photo.. hehe.. saw the headset ?? i think its cool.. hahaha.. we used tt to tok on the phone.. so that we haf our hands free to type n click and write.. no need to use sohlder n '' giap'' our phone..but sometimes tis thing will mess up our hair.. esp i tied my hair n spray.. it will make ur hair abit messy.. hehe.. but i like to use it.. soo professional... hahahaa.. u realise something?? there's two empty chair behind mi?? hahah.. Daniel and Christina is not around.. Christina out for lunch.. Daniel dun know go where.. haha.. sometimes we very slack.. nothing to do.. sometimes.. hmm.. its depends.. Monday usually got ALOT of calls coming in.. u will answer phone till siao.. haahhaha.. but.. i still quite enjoyed this job.. really trained my temper cos u cant scold the customer.. its a good memory and great experience.. haha.. next time can go back work again.. haha..
with joy..

the lady is Winnie.. she is the person who is in office.. hmm.. do wat exactly i not sure.. haha.. i know she's in charge of my timesheet and in charge of mi ba.. sort of lah.. meaning anything.. like salary all this.. is she incharge lor.. hehe.. the guy is my manager.. Mr Hon.. everyday briefing is given by him.. hehe.. quite nice.. but abit. longwinded.. haha.. but quite nice lah.. hehehe..  

tis is Grace.. the 1st person i toked to when i 1st day reach Philips.. she is a very nice ger.. she taught mi quite alot.. n she is really a very friendly ger and really gives u a warm feeling.. she made mi felt very welcomed and really feel at home.. she's from City Harvest.. hehe.. there are quite a few christians here.. God Bless all of you!! 

tis is daniel. he is 25 years old liao.. one ofd very good operator. he is volume taker for many times liao.. always fight with Shawn.. volume taker means the person hu answered the most calls in that particular day.  

these are the people i had worked with in Philips. haha.. they are very nice people. enjoyed working with them. Though there are times where there are alot of stupid customers that make mi really quite pai chek. But i m still luck, cos i got alot of help from them whereas they actually must help themselves when they 1st came to work. so, i m still the lucky one. ahha.. God Bless mi.. =) 

how to tell a guy likes a ger?

1.the guy will try to nake u laugh
2.he will flirt with you when he can
3.he might try to show off around you
4.he will help out if you ask for it
5.he will stick up to you when u need it most
6.he will be friendly to you and all your friends
7.he may call you for no good reason
8.he will make fun of you all the time
9.he will tell you did good even if you did horrible
10.he will make a eye contact with a happy grin on his face